He Won't Teach Me How To Love Him (Anymore)

Of all the things I have learned
Heard, said, even whispered.
None of it.
Loud and brightly.
Or not.
Of all the things I wanted.
Including you I needed.
Yet above all these things
There is one thing I question.
So to you, lover, I propose.
A series of interviews and applications,
Questions beating the veins of my heart
(Thoughts even)
Additionally, some inquiring
Other distant minds.
So to my proposal again
Who would know?
If for a moment I gave
That part, island, waters surrounding
Of myself, to you
In return what would you do
How do I say those words
I look, as if your eyes hold forgiveness
Forgetfulness of this.
Is. Our business
How do I create a riddle
Sly enough
For your cunning
To show and inform
I must say this, lover
I must, lover
Acceptance brings healing
Rejection hatred
It's not enough to say "Love me"
Not close when cries "I Love You"
And here again I digress from proposing
My life
To give you, knowingly
As if trying to love you
But for what purpose
It has been some long lonely times
Teaching me not how to love but how far I haven't loved
Farther than the stars
Indefinetly unlike reality
Yearning for one day holding
Won't you explain
Tell me
Write, sing, scream it
Paint it if you have to
Or mime if it works
Give me a sign so I may love you, fully and legally.
Teach me.
I propose again me to you
You.
The first real
Real real
Let's not dictate with classification
Damn it just teach me to love you